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Player Name: Dante
Preferred Pronouns?: She/her
Player Contact: teenysanguini
Other characters in play? n/a

Character Name: Asriel Dreemurr
Canon: Undertale
Game Transplant: soulgemmed
Original App: Here!
Game Summary: Soulgemmed is a RP game based off of the Puella Magi Madoka Magica series. It's a mix of slice-of-life, mystery, and horror, in which characters are brought to the quiet town of Nyoi-Cho after forming a contract with Kyubey to become a magical girl (or "magi"). Characters band together with their new magical abilities to protect the town and themselves from evil entities called Nightmares and Witches, all while learning about what secrets the town holds and dealing with rival Magi.

How long was your character in Game: A year and a half.
History of Character in their Game:

When Kyubey approached Asriel in the Ruins, offering him a once-in-a-lifetime chance to leave the Underground and become a magi, it felt like the perfect deal.

Instead of turning back into Flowey and living in isolation as monsterkind started their new life on the Surface, he would instead get to make a wish. In exchange, Asriel would form a contract with Kyubey to become a magi and protect humanity from creatures called Nightmares. Desperate to save himself, he didn't bother questioning the offer. Asriel made his wish.

"I don't want to forget how to feel love."

And with that, Asriel's contract was sealed and he was whisked off to the city of Nyoi-Cho. Although he barely understood what being a magi was, he was dropped into the role almost immediately along with a group of others who had similarly made contracts with Kyubey.

From there, Asriel struggled to adjust to his new life. Despite agreeing to a contract in which Asriel would have to fight for the rest of his life or risk turning into a Nightmare himself, this new world he was thrown into was surprisingly exciting for the young monster. He slowly developed his new magical abilities, had a permanent home on a "Surface", and formed friendships with his fellow magi. He existed in an environment where he could live peacefully and where he felt he had purpose. Fighting and protecting the residents of Nyoi-Cho while working alongside his new magi allies allowed him to work through the guilt of what he'd done as Flowey, without actually having to face it. As far as Asriel was concerned, he could leave the Underground and everything he'd done there far behind him and begin a new, better life.

Because of this, his "kill or be killed" attitude really started to subside over time. Sure, that philosophy applied when it came to fighting Nightmares, but his cynical attitude was starting to fade. For several months, he strongly believed that what he was doing was the best path for him to grow into a better person. Even with a few hiccups along the way, such as the frightening experience of turning into a Nightmare himself, it didn't deter him from wanting to be a good magi.

August was what first put a dent in his growing, optimistic attitude. A game was announced over a website, in which magi were pitted against other magi in order to gain "happiness points" that would bring a magi good luck. Pranking, attacking, and even murder were options to steal points from other magi to give to themselves. While Asriel tried to hold out on playing, he witnessed his teammates turning on each other for higher scores. After the damage was done, Asriel began to question if what he was doing was really the right thing, and if they could still call themselves heroes after what had happened during the game. After a while, Asriel still clung to the belief that he was doing the right thing, because protecting Nyoi-Cho and becoming a better magi was all he had. Still, he never quite forgot the incident.

The following month, Asriel's attempt to leave his past behind and forgotten was interrupted by the arrival of Mettaton. Out of every magi Asriel has ever met, he had the most dynamic relationship with Mettaton. It shifted from Mettaton hating him after learning his true identity to the two of them heavily relying on each other as both allies and friends. It was because of Mettaton that Asriel learned that forgiveness was something he had to earn and worked towards, and that his actions can't be so easily erased. He also felt a personal responsibility for Mettaton. Not just because he was the only other monster in Nyoi-Cho, but also because Asriel understood the dangers of being a magi and how difficult it was to adjust to having new magical abilities. So Asriel took on the role of Mettaton's teacher, showing him how to fight Nightmares and get a feel for his new powers.

Unfortunately, it was short-lived. An event that made Asriel mentally revert to his Flowey persona revealed the truth of his identity to Mettaton. The robot did not take the news well and threatened Asriel out of his house. Since Mettaton was also still dealing with the overwhelming despair of coming in from a recent genocide route, he ended up turning into a Nightmare.

Asriel and a few others ventured into Mettaton's Nightmare to save him, with Asriel going because he knew he was the one who caused it. After Mettaton was rescued, it forced a conversation between them, where Mettaton warily decided to see if Asriel was really capable of redeeming himself. The two of them proceeded to work together, their uneasy relationship smoothing out over time as they continued to back each other up. However, their conversation was a painful reminder to Asriel that he couldn't just run away from the things he did as Flowey. He decided that he would try to better himself for Mettaton in order to prove that he was worth redemption.

Their post-Nightmare conversation also revealed to Asriel that Mettaton was from a genocide route timeline, one apparently caused by Frisk. Asriel was both confused and horrified at what this could possibly mean. Without Frisk around to clarify what happened, Asriel assumed the worst and thought that after they had said their goodbyes, Frisk decided to reset and kill everyone after Asriel was taken to Nyoi-Cho.

Stewing in his own hurt and feeling that everything that was sacrificed to break the barrier now meant nothing, Asriel later thought of Frisk as someone who had saved him, only so that they could see him suffer all over again. When Asriel's life in Nyoi-Cho began to deteriorate, these feelings about Frisk only grew worse. It fueled Asriel's eventual belief that Chara had been right about humanity all along.

Regarding Chara, Asriel's opinion of them had shifted heavily as well. Once Asriel had belatedly learned that Chara was in Nyoi-Cho, he tried to seek them out past the one meeting they had in August. Their paths had crossed a few times, but it wasn't until a Nightmare fight in January that Asriel's feelings about Chara were put to the test. A dream version of Chara that Asriel mistook as real appeared during the Nightmare, trying to force Asriel to fight them. Asriel repeatedly shot down their attempts, pleading to let him save them. When Chara finally acknowledged Asriel's unwillingness to fight, they faded away and used the last of their power to help clear away Asriel's darkened soul gem. Asriel was finally forced to accept that Chara was permanently gone, and that their last action was to sacrifice themselves to save him. Unable to cope with the grief of losing them again, Asriel went from thinking that Chara "wasn't the greatest person" to putting them on a pedestal as a loving, self-sacrificing sibling. This ideal version of Chara was what Asriel clung to when he was faced with more hardship in the coming months.

March was the turning point for Asriel, as an incident that resulted in the murder of two girls would cause everything he believed in to shatter. Instead of trying to redeem himself and striving to become a better magi, he soon succumbed to fear and despair as his life rapidly fell apart.

An announcement over a website put everyone's morals to the test, when another magi named Kagaku revealed she kidnapped two girls. Every magi was forced to vote on which one was to live, while the other died. At the same time, a labyrinth filled with death traps had opened up under the school where the girls were supposedly being held. Groups of magi tried and failed to rescue them both, suffering severe causalities along the way. But the last attempt opened up a path to an elevator, and Asriel, Pokey, and Mettaton volunteered to try and rescue the girls. When they reached the elevator, they were given a choice to turn back or both girls would die. Despite the other magi telling them not to go through with it, Mettaton still thought it was better to try and save both girls, rather than just going back and voting for one of them die. Pokey and Asriel agreed, and Pokey pretended to get into an argument with Mettaton in order to fool Kagaku and force their way in to get to the girls. Asriel, a little unsure of what he was doing but who still wanted to come back a hero, tried to follow along with them. The plan unfortunately failed and as promised, both girls were murdered by Kagaku. After the death of the two hostages, Asriel's magi allies were furious with all three of them.

Asriel soon learned to fear mistakes after that. People he once considered friends and allies had more or less socially ostracized him for the incident, some of them calling for punishment or giving them the cold shoulder to teach them a lesson. Reminders of what the three of them had done were brought up over the next few months, enough to drive into Asriel's mind that he, without a doubt, was directly responsible for the death of those girls and that what he had done was unforgivable. He proceeded to become more passive and unsure of himself, afraid to make further decisions on his own.

To further his own fears and guilt, he saw how Pokey and Mettaton were treated by everyone else. Mettaton got the worst of it, so badly that it began to debilitate his own magi abilities and caused him to "fall down" when it became mentally overwhelming for him. The sheer guilt over Mettaton's death caused Asriel's HP to drop down to 1, making him incredibly frail.

Asriel also learned that Pokey's severed head was tossed around by Dito after a gruesome public post over the mirrors. Learning that there hadn't been too much outrage over that only made Asriel think that him, Mettaton, or Pokey could die and the rest of the magi would either not care or think it's "deserved". The more Asriel felt like an outcast, the more it cemented his friendships with Mettaton and Pokey. He saw them as the only ones left that he could rely on for support.

Shortly after Mettaton returned from death, the magi were forced into battle with a Witch. The Witch specifically targeted Asriel, Pokey, and Mettaton as "unforgivable magi" and did everything in her power to make them pay. She brainwashed the other magi into attacking the three of them, with Asriel himself included in the brainwashing. Partially influenced by the Witch and his own guilt, Asriel tried to take his own life with his sword. Ryoko desperately talked him down, and he hesitated just long enough for Lilith to finish the job and kill him.

Despite that the other magi were brainwashed into murdering him, Asriel still took his death very personally. He came to the conclusion that if he was this unforgivable just for being involved in the accidental death of those two girls, that his fellow magi would turn on and kill him if they knew what he'd done as Flowey. Terrified of them learning the truth, Asriel became more guarded and less of the gentle, kind boy that he once tried to be. After all, if his attempts to redeem himself ended with him being a murderer anyway, why keep trying to be good at all?

Those were Asriel's thoughts as started to act more like Flowey. Despite him being afraid of making decisions on his own, he became more reckless with his own well-being after deciding that he was no longer important to anyone here. His reputation didn't matter, because he would always be seen as a murderer. This was most apparent in his anonymous bulletin board posts, where he unknowingly admitted to Mettaton that he was fine with his own self-destruction and even encouraged Mettaton's murderous impulses. He later revealed to Mettaton his growing bitterness towards humans, claiming that if a monster kills a human they deserve to die, and that monsters only have worth if they're being good and listening to humans.

The only human that Asriel didn't have bitter feelings for, and who was able to consistently calm Asriel down during his worst moments, was Pokey. When Nightmare fights got too dangerous or something would happen to shake up Asriel's mental state, Pokey was always there to help him through it. Asriel began to see Pokey as an older brother figure, looking up to him for help when he needed it. Pokey was the first person that Asriel trusted enough to tell him what he'd done as Flowey, and in return Pokey was the first person to accept him for it anyway. He tried to help Asriel through his emotions and trauma that he was unable to deal with by himself, being the only person to ask Asriel why he felt the way he did. It created an unbreakable bond between them, as Asriel treated Pokey like family.

With his original goal of becoming a good magi and protecting his allies gone out the window, Asriel felt lost. After March, every magi was at each other's throats, and having anyone work together seemed impossible. With no one to protect or rely on, Asriel turned to protecting just Pokey and Mettaton and surviving as his only goal. It created a bitter Asriel, who no longer saw any kind of redemption for himself. With no choice but to continue forward, he felt that Chara may have been right about humanity from the start.

Perhaps that horrible ideology of "kill or be killed" wasn't so wrong after all.

The next few months consisted of Asriel trying to rebuild his previous relationships, and watching his allies fall apart and split off into their own, smaller factions. Their leader, Kakyoin, officially resigned, but still offered to let Asriel fight alongside him. Mettaton, on the other hand, was not doing as well. He died shortly after a Nightmare fight that he and Asriel went on, leaving Asriel to guard his body until the robot revived. The stress of watching his friends mentally deteriorate while watching his former team break apart and fight with each other was too much for him to handle.

It wasn't until about June when every magi was roped into a mysterious "King's Game". Asriel was forced to make and consume a pie filled with poisonous flowers or face a horrible punishment, which he did with the help of Mettaton.

How did they change from their canon personality wise (Please explain what caused it to happen?)

One of the biggest changes Asriel went through was learning how to be more independent. When he first showed up in Nyoi-Cho, he was the only one from his world. Chara was permanently gone (or so he thought), and it felt safe to assume he'd never see his family or any of his fellow monsters again. He was given a house to live in, but no one to really take care of him. That meant learning how to care for himself. He slowly learned how to clean up and take care of his own house, and thanks to working at a restaurant for a short period of time, he learned how to cook decent meals for himself instead of just living off of a candy and cereal diet.

Having his own house wasn't the only reason for Asriel's independence. There were times where he had to fight Nightmares on his own to clean his soul gem, or had to learn how to work as a team with other Magi in order to take down stronger Nightmares and Witches. Each time he successfully defeated one of these creatures, his magic and sense of confidence grew stronger too. He felt confident enough to battle on his own, or give his input on how to win against a Nightmare or a Witch. Battling alongside other Magi made him feel like he was an important part of their team.

Having Mettaton show up contributed a lot to Asriel's growth and learning personal responsibility too. Until he showed up, Asriel was wiling to swept everything he did as Flowey under the rug and start over, instead of dealing with it in any sort of way. Once Mettaton found out, he was understandably angry and it forced Asriel to understand the pain that he caused. And despite how bad Asriel felt or how much he apologized, he realized he needed to actually work for that forgiveness. This motivated Asriel to commit himself to becoming a better ally to Mettaton in order to gain his trust again.

For a while, Asriel got a second chance to heal from his previous trauma and live out his childhood between all the supernatural monster fighting. He made friends and allies out of other Magi, including kids his own age. He had the opportunity to do the things he couldn't do before coming to Nyoi-Cho, liking playing games by the beach or just eating cereal while watching Saturday morning cartoons. His life while he wasn't fighting was relatively peaceful, at least whenever there wasn't an event to stir things up. Asriel was completely allowed to live life however he chose, which was a big deal for him.

And then it all came crashing down. After Asriel, Mettaton, and Pokey made the decision that accidentally got two Magi killed, Asriel soon faced distrust and anger from the Magi he called his allies. He saw his team fall apart to infighting, which Asriel saw as his fault. The death of the two Magi girls he tried to save really shook him up, because he saw it as failure on his part. That no matter how much he's changed and tried to make up for his past mistakes, he was still just a bad kid who couldn't get better in the first place. Seeing how fast his allies turned on him made him think that there was no point in trying to be a good person when he's just going to mess it all up anyway.

The fallout made Asriel resentful and distrustful of humans. He felt as though the anger his allies had for him was because he was only a "good" monster if he was doing what other people told him to do. This was amplified by him seeing some of his human allies getting more of a pass for doing horrific things, such as tossing around a decapitated head on the network. Because of this, Asriel let himself slip back into his "Flowey" persona, which was really just him letting himself feel anger and bitterness towards his situation. Another strike against humanity was when Mettaton told him about Frisk's genocide route, which broke his heart, but also broke his trust in Frisk. Towards the end of his stay in Nyoi-Cho, he felt like Chara was the only human he could have ever trusted.

How did they change from their canon physically (Please explain what caused it to happen?):

Physically, Asriel has barely changed at all. Despite being a year older, he can't age. He keeps a ring containing his soul gem on him at all times, and all the scars and injuries he's suffered from battle have disappeared after reviving from his most recent death. He looks a little scruffier, and way more tired from stress and poor self-care.

Powers:

From soulgemmed

Using the power of his soul gem, Asriel can transform himself into a magi and use a variety of magical abilities. When transformed, Asriel's clothes change to look more like a purple version of this, and he gains a curved saber as a weapon. His soul gem also becomes a part of his magi outfit, taking the form of a heart-shaped jewel locket around his neck. In his transformed state, Asriel can use the following abilities:

-Asriel can summon vines from his hand.
-He can summon a fist-sized fireball.
-He can use Star Blazing, which causes three, large star-shaped objects to crash into the ground and explode where they land. Using this ability is too powerful for Asriel at his current experience level, to the point where he can't properly control it. One use is enough to render Asriel unable to move or walk for the entire day.
-Asriel can summon sharp-tipped roses to throw at enemies.
-Asriel's fur can swell up, making him into a fluffy round ball of fur. It protects him from attacks, but the downside is that he can't move or attack at all in this form unless he reverts back to his normal self.

When he isn't transformed, Asriel can use the following abilities:

-Anyone who touches or hugs Asriel will experience a pleasant memory, a song, a familiar scent, or feel that someone they deeply care about is standing near them. It's an ability to comfort upset teammates and is at its strongest the more upset someone is. This ability can also heal minor to moderate wounds. Minor injuries taking an hour to fully heal, while moderate injuries take a full day.

Asriel's soul gem will also take the form of a ring when he's untransformed.

From canon:

Asriel has an ability that all monsters share, and that's the ability to absorb human souls once a human is killed. He also has the potential to learn fire magic, as both of his parents possess this ability and it's one of his attacks in the true pacifist ending. But he doesn't seem to know how to use fire magic before he becomes Flowey. The fire magic his parents appear as fireballs, and in his mother's case, she also uses it for cooking.

After being turned into Flowey, Asriel gains the power of "saving" and "resetting". It essentially means that Asriel can travel back to any point in time he "saved" at, and from there create a new timeline. And if he doesn't like how the new timeline turned out? He can reset back to his save point so that he can start over as many times as he wants. Additionally, Flowey has the ability to change the shape of his face to whatever he wants.

When Asriel absorbs multiple human souls, he gains an almost god-like power which he uses in two ways. During the first fight with Asriel as Flowey, he alters his form into a giant, terrifying flower monster and traps Frisk in a world devoid of any life other than the two of them. During that fight, Asriel uses all kinds of attacks - lasers, flamethrowers, vines, even attacks that are based on the personalities of the human souls he absorbed.

During Frisk's second fight with Asriel, he absorbs the human souls plus the soul of every monster in the Underground. This gives Asriel enough power to change his form into what Asriel envisions his adult self to be like. And in this form he gains an incredible strength and power, being able to use swords, powerful lightening attacks, and lasers.

Possessions: Just his clothes, his soul gem, a kid-sized trench coat, and a kid's wallet from the TV series "Orange Ninja Hero".

Please provide three samples from your previous game, at least one will have to be third person with context:
Sample One: Asriel learns about Hot Topic.
Sample Two: Asriel tells Pokey he died. (cw: suicide reference)
Sample Three: Asriel teaches Mettaton how to fight in a Nightmarescape.