Asriel Dreemurr (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
pleasereset) wrote2017-05-28 09:51 pm
pleasereset) wrote2017-05-28 09:51 pm
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[Asriel pulls his hand back slightly. He doesn't know what comforting thing he could possibly say to having all your friends leave. Mettaton just lost a friend before, didn't he?]
... It's not a "mistake". These were people you cared about, right?
...
Mettaton, do you think... would crying help?
[He did it before, right? When they came back from the Outpost the first time. Asriel doesn't know if he'll want to, but he'll be someone to cry on if that's what Mettaton needs.]
... It's not a "mistake". These were people you cared about, right?
...
Mettaton, do you think... would crying help?
[He did it before, right? When they came back from the Outpost the first time. Asriel doesn't know if he'll want to, but he'll be someone to cry on if that's what Mettaton needs.]
Crying won't bring anyone back.
[Mettaton sounded like someone who had already been crying. And he had, long before he texted anyone about this.
He didn't want to cry anymore because no matter how hard he cried and no matter how many tears stained the floor, he wasn't going to be able to will Bucky back into this city.]
The least that could have been done...is if someone's going to leave, if they care about me at all, then they can take me too.
[Mettaton sounded like someone who had already been crying. And he had, long before he texted anyone about this.
He didn't want to cry anymore because no matter how hard he cried and no matter how many tears stained the floor, he wasn't going to be able to will Bucky back into this city.]
The least that could have been done...is if someone's going to leave, if they care about me at all, then they can take me too.
It won't, but...
[Asriel's chest tightens as Mettaton continues talking. "If they care about me at all, then they can take me too."]
Do you want to leave?
[Asriel's chest tightens as Mettaton continues talking. "If they care about me at all, then they can take me too."]
Do you want to leave?
Of course I do. Don't you?
[Mettaton shakes his head, and it's all he can do to stop himself from laughing at the fact that Asriel would think any different.]
Everyone's going to leave. Through the Ingress, or through their own doing. They'll always leave. And I...I'm going to end up alone. Haha.
No Alphys. No Papyrus. No Lucio. No Bucky.
[His voice breaks on the final name, because it's still fresh, still painful.]
Soon...there won't be any you either.
Just me. Because I cannot be freed. I don't deserve to be. Murderer. Hypocrite. My poor family...can't even depend on me.
[Mettaton shakes his head, and it's all he can do to stop himself from laughing at the fact that Asriel would think any different.]
Everyone's going to leave. Through the Ingress, or through their own doing. They'll always leave. And I...I'm going to end up alone. Haha.
No Alphys. No Papyrus. No Lucio. No Bucky.
[His voice breaks on the final name, because it's still fresh, still painful.]
Soon...there won't be any you either.
Just me. Because I cannot be freed. I don't deserve to be. Murderer. Hypocrite. My poor family...can't even depend on me.
[Of course he does. But where would he even go? Where could any of them go?]
Of course I do.
[But there's no place for monsters like us, is what wants to say. But that his own, inner, ugly thoughts and he knows it won't help Mettaton.]
But I'm not going anywhere. We're not going anywhere. If we're stuck... then we're stuck together.
No one else is going to disappear.
Of course I do.
[But there's no place for monsters like us, is what wants to say. But that his own, inner, ugly thoughts and he knows it won't help Mettaton.]
But I'm not going anywhere. We're not going anywhere. If we're stuck... then we're stuck together.
No one else is going to disappear.
[Mettaton thinks to say something cruel. He considers telling Asriel that this is not the first time he has heard such things, and that it doesn't pay to be so disingenuous about the entire thing. He thinks to tell Asriel that nothing will improve, and that what they'd just all gone through had all but proved it.
He wanted to tell Asriel how much it truly destroyed any of his improvement to have the collar around his neck again and stealing his sense of individuality. Or that the gaping slash across his throat wasn't from anyone else; he had done it to himself.
Instead, he just goes quiet, nods faintly before leaning back on his sofa and closing his eye.]
I'm sorry.
He wanted to tell Asriel how much it truly destroyed any of his improvement to have the collar around his neck again and stealing his sense of individuality. Or that the gaping slash across his throat wasn't from anyone else; he had done it to himself.
Instead, he just goes quiet, nods faintly before leaning back on his sofa and closing his eye.]
I'm sorry.
[Even as Asriel says it, he knows he can't make Mettaton believe it. Not when he doesn't really believe it himself. All he can say are just empty words, empty promises... the true reality of this world, it was always kill or be killed.
Chara shouldn't have gone, because now Chara realizes what the Outpost truly was. And they were taken from him by the Savrii, and when they came back... something had hurt them. Mettaton shouldn't have gone, because now he had to live that hell all over again. Frisk shouldn't have gone, because Asriel can see them barely holding themselves together after attacking each slaver without any mercy.
Asriel shouldn't have gone, because now all he can think about is the dark. The feeling of a rope around his snout, pulling his jaw tight never goes away. And he confronted his nightmares... only to find out that it didn't make a difference at all. That they only thing that changed was that he became worse. That he became broken and disgusting...
That he was never a person at all. Maybe he didn't even need to be collared and muzzled to realize that, but it was the truth.
Asriel goes silent as Mettaton apologizes. He can't think of any more empty words, anything else to offer because there was no comfort to give.
He wordlessly slumps against Mettaton, just staying there for a few long moments. He wants to cry, but he probably shouldn't.]
Mettaton...
I'm sorry too. I'm sorry for everything. I just can't... I can't pretend that it any of this was okay. I'm not even good at pretending that things are going to be okay.
Chara shouldn't have gone, because now Chara realizes what the Outpost truly was. And they were taken from him by the Savrii, and when they came back... something had hurt them. Mettaton shouldn't have gone, because now he had to live that hell all over again. Frisk shouldn't have gone, because Asriel can see them barely holding themselves together after attacking each slaver without any mercy.
Asriel shouldn't have gone, because now all he can think about is the dark. The feeling of a rope around his snout, pulling his jaw tight never goes away. And he confronted his nightmares... only to find out that it didn't make a difference at all. That they only thing that changed was that he became worse. That he became broken and disgusting...
That he was never a person at all. Maybe he didn't even need to be collared and muzzled to realize that, but it was the truth.
Asriel goes silent as Mettaton apologizes. He can't think of any more empty words, anything else to offer because there was no comfort to give.
He wordlessly slumps against Mettaton, just staying there for a few long moments. He wants to cry, but he probably shouldn't.]
Mettaton...
I'm sorry too. I'm sorry for everything. I just can't... I can't pretend that it any of this was okay. I'm not even good at pretending that things are going to be okay.
Edited 2017-05-25 06:32 (UTC)
So don't. Let's...not do this today. I haven't the energy to lie.
[In that, at least, Mettaton was brutally honest. He'd just lost someone close to him. Even closer than Lucio had been. He can't pretend that it's fine, or that the situation will improve over time.
Still, his arm slowly pulls the young boss monster closer. Only just, though.]
[In that, at least, Mettaton was brutally honest. He'd just lost someone close to him. Even closer than Lucio had been. He can't pretend that it's fine, or that the situation will improve over time.
Still, his arm slowly pulls the young boss monster closer. Only just, though.]
[Asriel squeezes himself closer, no longer bothering with empty promises that everything's going to be all right.
He's not cut out for being an optimist, after all.]
Hey... let's make a dumb promise.
If or when the time comes that one of us has gotta leave, we'll come get the other, okay? And we'll take my transporter, and go as far as it can possibly go until we find a planet that's just for us. We'll take Frisk and Chara along too.
And... it'll be a nice planet, where we'll find all the people we miss. And we'll just... live there instead. And it'll have everything we could ever want on it.
[No such planet exists, and the both of them know it. It's a childish fantasy, but after everything that's happened... was it really that bad to just indulge in a some make-believe planet?]
He's not cut out for being an optimist, after all.]
Hey... let's make a dumb promise.
If or when the time comes that one of us has gotta leave, we'll come get the other, okay? And we'll take my transporter, and go as far as it can possibly go until we find a planet that's just for us. We'll take Frisk and Chara along too.
And... it'll be a nice planet, where we'll find all the people we miss. And we'll just... live there instead. And it'll have everything we could ever want on it.
[No such planet exists, and the both of them know it. It's a childish fantasy, but after everything that's happened... was it really that bad to just indulge in a some make-believe planet?]
[Mettaton struggles with that kind of thought. He's hardly keeping himself together at this point, with his SOUL hurting so much...]
Mmh...I would...not leave you behind if I could help it.
If we could do things that way, it would be nice.
[He doesn't believe it will ever work like that though. He's just not going to pretend that he does for Asriel's sake though. Because if one of them could be satisfied, then that would be enough.]
Mmh...I would...not leave you behind if I could help it.
If we could do things that way, it would be nice.
[He doesn't believe it will ever work like that though. He's just not going to pretend that he does for Asriel's sake though. Because if one of them could be satisfied, then that would be enough.]
Request data.
Location/status?
Location/status?
[Mettaton felt just as useless being transported as he had when he'd initially fallen down, but he's happy that help came at all for him and Asriel.
The more time that passes, the more he realizes he...may not ever move again, at least not until he dies and revives...if he's afforded that benefit this time. Thankfully, the Savrii that collect them both are kind enough (must be hard, choking down all those nasty thoughts about people like them) to help settle him near a plug, and they even help make him comfortable in Rinzler's home. Or at least...as comfortable as one could get in such a place.
He's just a dumb, dying robot though, so he has no complaints.
Just fears.
Once the Savrii are gone, Mettaton pointedly tries to avoid Asriel's gaze, because he feels...shame? Fear? Anxiety?
Maybe all of those. He's...not going to be the one that starts the conversation here. He can't. All those emotions make him feel as if he doesn't deserve to speak to Asriel, whether that's the only thing he can do or not.]
...
The more time that passes, the more he realizes he...may not ever move again, at least not until he dies and revives...if he's afforded that benefit this time. Thankfully, the Savrii that collect them both are kind enough (must be hard, choking down all those nasty thoughts about people like them) to help settle him near a plug, and they even help make him comfortable in Rinzler's home. Or at least...as comfortable as one could get in such a place.
He's just a dumb, dying robot though, so he has no complaints.
Just fears.
Once the Savrii are gone, Mettaton pointedly tries to avoid Asriel's gaze, because he feels...shame? Fear? Anxiety?
Maybe all of those. He's...not going to be the one that starts the conversation here. He can't. All those emotions make him feel as if he doesn't deserve to speak to Asriel, whether that's the only thing he can do or not.]
...
[Asriel, likewise, isn't much for talking either. He's still somewhat hung up on their last conversation, and now...
Even with Mettaton charging, he doesn't seem to be moving still. Deep down, he knows what it is. He knows what this is. But he can't accept it. Not this.
He tries to busy himself a little, checking Mettaton for injuries and downing a glass of water that was offered to him earlier. But after a little while...]
Mettaton... do you need anything?
Even with Mettaton charging, he doesn't seem to be moving still. Deep down, he knows what it is. He knows what this is. But he can't accept it. Not this.
He tries to busy himself a little, checking Mettaton for injuries and downing a glass of water that was offered to him earlier. But after a little while...]
Mettaton... do you need anything?
[Ahaha. Does he need anything?
Good question. Mettaton's neck twitches in effort, and...well, he manages after a deep struggle to turn his head, slowly. Very slowly. It's...something, right? Maybe he was being too negative. Maybe this was just a malfunction.
...But he knew better, and he didn't have it in him to hope.]
Could you...take the scarf and fold it? I can't put it in my PacDisc right now, but it's...been through a lot. We all have.
[He wouldn't allow that memory to suffer any damage though. It would be easy enough to take, it was loosely dangling from Mettaton's shoulders, and he had no way to fix it.]
Good question. Mettaton's neck twitches in effort, and...well, he manages after a deep struggle to turn his head, slowly. Very slowly. It's...something, right? Maybe he was being too negative. Maybe this was just a malfunction.
...But he knew better, and he didn't have it in him to hope.]
Could you...take the scarf and fold it? I can't put it in my PacDisc right now, but it's...been through a lot. We all have.
[He wouldn't allow that memory to suffer any damage though. It would be easy enough to take, it was loosely dangling from Mettaton's shoulders, and he had no way to fix it.]
[Asriel nods numbly, trying to keep any emotion from showing on his face. He very carefully removes the scarf and starts to fold it.]
Do you want me to keep it in mine?
[He'd understand if Mettaton said no. It's important to keep things like this close.]
Do you want me to keep it in mine?
[He'd understand if Mettaton said no. It's important to keep things like this close.]
Please do. Keep it safe for me, sweetheart.
I trust you to take care of it.
[He tries to smile...but he can't.]
I'll collect it...later.
[Later...when he's not dying. Yeah, this conversation is going swimmingly!]
I trust you to take care of it.
[He tries to smile...but he can't.]
I'll collect it...later.
[Later...when he's not dying. Yeah, this conversation is going swimmingly!]
Don't worry, I'll take good care of it. I'll give it back when you um... can move again.
[Because he refuses to say "die". He won't say it, he knows but he can't say it. He's the one who did this to him.
Asriel helplessly tries to find some topic to distract them with.]
Rinzler was really nice about letting us stay here, huh?
[Because he refuses to say "die". He won't say it, he knows but he can't say it. He's the one who did this to him.
Asriel helplessly tries to find some topic to distract them with.]
Rinzler was really nice about letting us stay here, huh?
Thank you, Asriel. I don't know what I would do without you, really. You've...taken good care of me.
[He means it. Whatever Asriel might think, Mettaton is grateful. Perhaps he should clarify, but for now, he lets the subject drop. Just for now.]
Mm, indeed. After what happened at the Outpost, I would not have thought him willing to house someone like me. I suppose it's useful to have friends in high places. So thank you again. I will try not to make a nuisance of myself.
[As if he could hurt a fly at this point.]
[He means it. Whatever Asriel might think, Mettaton is grateful. Perhaps he should clarify, but for now, he lets the subject drop. Just for now.]
Mm, indeed. After what happened at the Outpost, I would not have thought him willing to house someone like me. I suppose it's useful to have friends in high places. So thank you again. I will try not to make a nuisance of myself.
[As if he could hurt a fly at this point.]
All I did was use a drone...
[He sure as heck didn't stop him from falling down and dying. Though at the mention of the Outpost, Asriel's weak smile fades.]
Did you meet Rinzler there?
[He sure as heck didn't stop him from falling down and dying. Though at the mention of the Outpost, Asriel's weak smile fades.]
Did you meet Rinzler there?
Mm, I did. I...well, we did not part on the best terms. You know what happened to me.
[Mettaton's face is unfortunately still expressive, and he looks rather guilty. Asriel can probably do the math.]
[Mettaton's face is unfortunately still expressive, and he looks rather guilty. Asriel can probably do the math.]
Ah...
[Mettaton doesn't have to explain. He was there for it, after all.]
Rinzler was the one who saved me the first time I was on the Outpost. I'm sure he knew what was happening.
[Mettaton doesn't have to explain. He was there for it, after all.]
Rinzler was the one who saved me the first time I was on the Outpost. I'm sure he knew what was happening.
Maybe, but I still attacked him, didn't I?
[Mettaton winced. This...probably wasn't good to talk about when he was in such a state. But he was tired of running from his problems. Look at what it had done for him so far.]
I wish I could change so many things...
[Mettaton winced. This...probably wasn't good to talk about when he was in such a state. But he was tired of running from his problems. Look at what it had done for him so far.]
I wish I could change so many things...
[Asriel would argue, but he's afraid of making things worse.
He's silent for a while, but]
Me too.
He's silent for a while, but]
Me too.
Asriel...I wish I could hug you. I wish I could tell you that all will be well if we just keep positive, but I can't tell you that.
Not when I'm like this.
[He breathes out a heavy sigh.]
I'm so sorry...I should have been honest long before this. With everyone, and with myself. But it is a little hard to be honest when what you are being honest about...involves talking poorly of someone that others love.
[After all, he wasn't really a Dreemurr, was he? He was just a ghost who had become a robot, only to die for his troubles. But not before losing everything...no, he'd had to lose everything and everyone but who he considered family...and he sorely hoped none of them would leave him at this point.
His SOUL literally could not bear the strain.]
Not when I'm like this.
[He breathes out a heavy sigh.]
I'm so sorry...I should have been honest long before this. With everyone, and with myself. But it is a little hard to be honest when what you are being honest about...involves talking poorly of someone that others love.
[After all, he wasn't really a Dreemurr, was he? He was just a ghost who had become a robot, only to die for his troubles. But not before losing everything...no, he'd had to lose everything and everyone but who he considered family...and he sorely hoped none of them would leave him at this point.
His SOUL literally could not bear the strain.]
[Asriel reaches his hand out, placing it on top of Mettaton's. It wasn't hard to guess what he was implying, it's been a rough topic for a few months now.]
I love you both, you know. I know it's been hard between you and Chara... I just wish I knew how to make it easier on both of you.
[Replacing himself with an Asriel that actually knew what he was doing was probably a good start-]
I can't... talk poorly about Chara. The last time I did, they knew and... I think I hurt them real bad.
I love you both, you know. I know it's been hard between you and Chara... I just wish I knew how to make it easier on both of you.
[Replacing himself with an Asriel that actually knew what he was doing was probably a good start-]
I can't... talk poorly about Chara. The last time I did, they knew and... I think I hurt them real bad.
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